wawAn LiFe

2010-09-25T14:35:00.002+08:00

Aku nk luah kan perasaan tapi tidak tau bagaimana. Aku tenung ni blog dah 3 min cuba ungkapkan kata yg dpt luah kan isi hati ku. Namun tidak dpt ku ungkapkan.

Fikiran ku sekarang lagi berserabut. Hati ku ini tidak tenang. Aku tidak dpt senyum.
Hati ku amat teramat amat sedih. Aku tau byk kekurangan ku. Teramat banyak. Aku ini insan yg teramat lemah. Hanya pada Mu ya Allah dpt ku mengadu sedih ku ini. Aku hanya
dpt berdoa. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yg menguasai hati2 setiap insan. Aku hanya mampu berusaha dan tawakkal.

Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku ini penuh dgn dosa. Membuat dosa setiap hari. Setiap masa. Setiap detik. Ya Allah. Mampu kah aku melangkah kaki ku ke Syurga Mu. Siapa kah diri ku ini?

Tenang kan lah hati ku dan fikiran ku. Aku tau aku telah melukan kan hati nya. Aku membuat dia tawar hati untuk berkata-kata dgn ku. Oooh Allah tenang kan laaah hati ku ini. Ini adalah dugaan bagi diri ku.

2010-09-15T10:15:00.004+08:00

Finally....!! Its been 9 months since my last day of updating this blog...Luckily i can still log in to this blog coz there was a prob earlier on...

Guess what??!! Its been 1 year. 1 year of NS and another 1 year left. About my NS life i learn a lot and now i'm starting to realise that the real world outside is not always kind to us. The world outside is the real world as an adult have to face for most of the Singaporean. The real world outside is what most of the poor country regardless of their age have to face. Lets face it. This is the real world. Equit yourself with certain skills. Skills which will make you a person which knows what is right and what is wrong. In short the person who control is the person who thinks. Is that true?

My age now is 22 years old..alhamdullilaaah...May Allah give me His blessings. Amiiin...

To those who knows me....I wish everyone of you Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir dan batin sekirannya pernah luka kan hati dengan sengaja atau tidak tolong maaf kan yee. Saya ni adalah insan yg selalu membuat kesilapan.

2010-01-16T20:27:00.002+08:00

I just realise that i have not been blogging for about 16 days...
That is quite a long time. I've been busy with exams from police exams
to arabic exam.

Its been 4 months already since i enter NS. Thats fast. I learned a lot
from my 4 months plus in NS.

Now i'm really free. :-) I just can't wait for my posting on 25 Jan. I
want new challenges. hehehe. Challenges that make me a better person.
InsyaAllah.

Challenges is just a challenge. What makes it beneficial is how you handle
it. You take it with positive or with negative mind. You can always learn
something from whatever you do. Its all up to you.

This is one of the most important lesson that i learnt during my 4 months
in NS.

2009-12-30T14:27:00.002+08:00

I went to Pulau Ubin with 2 of my squad mate friends. It was fun but
tiring. The most exciting part was the Mountain Cycling. That was
my first time. Hahaha. Plus my rear brake of my bicycle is not that
effective. I still remember when i was going down slope with a lot of
humps here and there i was being caught by a huge rock by suprise.
I panic at that moment and guess what? With that great speed and with
my rear brake is "very very good" i collided with the rock and
i "mini" fly forward. Luckily i landed on my feet and not with my hands
or body or head. OMG. That is the challenge that i want.

Akan ku selami hati mu sedalam-dalamnya. Aku akan cuba memiliki mutiara
hati mu. Aku mencari mutiara itu dengan mata hati ku bukan mata kasar
ku. Namun ku tahu ia memerlukan masa. Akan ku sabar mencarinya dengan
berbekalkan usaha dan tawakkal. InsyaAllah.

2009-12-18T21:42:00.002+08:00

This is the time for me to really update my blog..Wahahaha. But the
problem is i really do not know what to blog.Nvrm i try.

Its been 3 months and 10 days since i had been enlisted to NS. I will
POP quite soon about a months plus time. Have i learn something usefull
during my NS life all this while? I do learn. I really learn how to
interact with people more and also some of the small small stuff
that is hard for me to explain.

I starting to feel bored doing nothing at home. I need to keep myself
busy. I really want to play some sports. Ooooh myyyy...i really need
it badly.. anyone play bowling or play soccer or sepaktakraw or
badminton or table tennis or hiking or anything. I just love to do
all this stuff...!! Maybe in my blood. But i'm not sure is it from my
dad? Because when i tell my parents about any sports i played then
my dad will tell me that he did play that sport. And i still remember
when my dad, my younger bro and me play badminton. My dad will not give
any chance to us eventhough we were kid that time.

Guess what i start to love swimming and martial arts. Wohooo. Sume laa
aku sukeeee.

I just feel lonely tonight. Y eh?? errrm.

2009-12-17T19:59:00.002+08:00

I'm home....bape best nye kat umaah...together with my family. :)

Last sun i went to fly a kite...!! Great right?? For the first time
i really fly a kite. Mcm ade orang kate. Kau kene uat mcm layang2,
kadang2 kene tarik and kadang2 kene lepas kan. And its true. At
times its best for you to realise the kite away from you and
sometimes its best for you to pull the kite nearer to you. Sorry
la tk sempat nk update coz balek dari maen layang2 je dah kene
book in so tk sempat.

Anw wan doakan die akan selamat pergi ke Malaysia dan selamat
pulang. :) Tak de opputunity to say a proper goodbye. If you read
my blog then i wish you happy enjoying kat sane. Beri salam kat
negara Malaysia bukan awek2 kat Malaysia...hahaha...

2009-12-06T17:56:00.002+08:00

What we want does not mean we will get the best from it. Maybe what
we do not like is the best for us. Even if we cannot get the benefits
now but maybe in the future we will get. This does not mean that we
should just sit there and wait. But we must try. Try as hard as
possible. The most difficult things to do is action. Yes action. We
can have a brilliant plan but if we never do any action there is nothing
to that plan. But this does not mean you have just do action without
plan. Understand?

I want to eat Mc Donalds....!!

Should i buy before booking in??

Aku cuba sedaya upaya tidak memikirkan mu. Kerna pabila ku memikir
kan mu hati ku merasa rindu.

2009-12-06T08:22:00.002+08:00

What a long day yesterday....wohoooo...!! Tapi beest...coz dah lame tk
go around singapore the whole day...hahaha..

Officially i lost eating pedas...i thought i can handle it...tapi mcm peluh
membasahi muke ku...haha...and tk lupe tissue....!! OMG...

2009-12-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

Why do i consider of doing a different line now. This is very risky
but i really want to give it my best shot. But why??

But i'm sure now is not the best time for me to go forward with my
plan. There are too many risks involve here. I know the easiest way
is to become an engineer which i want it too. But this new interest pop
up from no where since it dissapear quite a few years ago. Its strange.

Maybe i'm scared to to give a go for my new ambitious field which is
alien for me right now because due to lack of experience and knowledge.
But if i can get the knowledge??

2009-11-29T14:25:00.002+08:00

My madrasah will commence next year. I have completed 1 year of my SPI.
Alhamdulilaah. Without me realising it, a year has past.

I'm still learning arabic languange. I'm not sure if i can continue after
that due to my posting. If i am posted to NPCO or any division which
the working days is 2 days on and 2 days off. Then i will be having a
hard time attending my classes.

I'm 21 years old. A lot of things i do not know.

Friday was an exciting day for me. I spent almost the whole day at my
nenek's house with my cousins. We had lots of fun. And 1 of my cousin
treat us ice cream at Mc Donalds. I'm sure my belly growing healthier each
and everyday. hehehehe.

Sat went to my friend's house teaching. After that went to graduation which
consists of madrasah students and also Teen Alive student. It was an exciting
performance. I enjoy it evethough it took about 1.5hr of travelling. Maybe
i need to buy motorcycle. But i think not now. While going home from
Pasir Ris East CC, i stop at Raffles Mrt. It was great..!! Enjoying the
sceneries there especially the river which makes me emo..hahahaha.
The clouds and the birds chirping. Then there was this couple asked me to
take photograph of them. Romantic sey. They were caucasians.

Today will be another week of booking in. OOO yes i have not buy biscuits.
I need them because i will be hungry at night and i do not want to beg biscuits
from my friends. HAHAHAA.

Anw there is someone who declare herself to be a champion in eating spicy food.
And she want to challenge me eat spicy food. hehehehe. So
maybe i shall try to train myself. If you want to know i loves spicy food.
But sometimes not, because see my mood. But cili padi NO PROBLEM....!!!
BRING IT ON....!!! Just tell me when, where, how much...!! HAHAHAHA...!!

ok i think i need to start buying biscuits. Time is running late.

2009-11-26T23:53:00.001+08:00

I'm really touch that my student from the APEX mentees appreciate our mentors
effort and dedication...

To all my mentees....Abg doakan semoga korang berjaya k... :)

2009-11-22T15:54:00.003+08:00

I still feel that being at polytecnic was fun...But enough said...Now i need
to move to the next chapter of my life...

Yesterday i told my mum that i miss playing takraw. But i said that i do not
know how to find the time to play with my friends. My mum said to me. All
those things had past. Now look ahead and do not think too much about your
past.

Maybe at this stage of my life i will be finding a new direction. Thinking back
what is best for me. I just feel that 2 years is very very long maaan. Seriously.
I will try my very best to be a better person and not to waste time during my
2 years in NS. 12 weeks had just past. Hopefully my POP will be on Jan. Meaning
its about 6-8 weeks. Ya Allah can i get throught this 2 years?? Why i cannot find
any enjoyment in it?

Anw my mum just said to me yesterday. "Kau gi belajar laa sampai ke tue bile dah
50 tahun aru gi kahwin tau." My mum sinder tu. Who want to marry at the age of
50 sey. Dah tue kerepot. Jodoh itu ditangan Tuhan. Namun kite harus berusaha
dan cari isteri yg baek. Remember wan you are 21 years old.Still long way to
go. But i'm just a normal human being who want to be loved.

Biarlah hati ini merana seorang diri. Kerana tiada seorang pun tahu perasaan ku ketika ini. Aku hanya dapat meminta pada Mu Ilahi. Aku tidak tahu perasaan apakah
ini. Adakah perasaan gembira ataupun duka seperti dihiris belati. Yang inginkan
Syurga Firdausi. Namun layakkah aku insan yang sebegini. Dipenuhi dosa yang amat banyak sekali.

Ok laah. Later need to go back camp. Serve the nation....!!!!

Engkau telah memberi sedikit sinaran cahaya di hati ku walaupun aku
tahu engkau tidak menyedari. Aku harap satu hari aku dapat melihat senyuman
mu lagi.

2009-11-22T01:40:00.002+08:00

Ku dapati tangkai bungga mawar itu penuh dengan duri. Ia amat sukar utk memiliki.
Namun kini ku sedari. Siapakah diriku ini. Yang tiada emas utk ditukar ganti.
Ku hanya berdiam diri. Menunggu musim silih berganti.

My goal is....to be able to speak and read in arabic languange in 2 years time.
After that i will learn Chinese language...!! Wohooooo.....can't wait maaan...
Then migrate....haha...migrate to China or Arabic nation...errrrmmmmmm

2009-11-22T01:25:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah kabul kan doa ku Ya Allah...

2009-11-18T20:06:00.002+08:00

At last i know what is a maxi dress...haha..i thought it is a skirt..ape daah
wan...

So i prefer maxi dress or dress or jeans. For me of course laaa jeans coz i'm
a male. But for female i prefer them to wear maxi dress or dress. Y? First tk ketat,
second nampak keanggunan sebagai wanita yang solehah.

So riduwan....sok pagi dah kene gi balek camp...apekah perasaan kamu? Perasaan
saya pada ketika ini sungguh dan amatlah tidak ade perasaan. Kerana saya masih
belom agi mood NS.

I just cannot wait for next week on 28th nov to hear someone singing...maybe
going to record and video tape....how bout that?? is it a good idea??

But before that i need to focus on my exam first which in this coming sun...

2009-11-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

Adakah tali wau ku telah putus?? Kerana wau ku yang terbang bergitu indah.
Aku ingin simpannya sampai bila2. Tetapi itu niat di hati ku sahaja.
Mungkin ini masanya untuk aku lps kan tali wau ku itu yang mungkin telah
terputus?

Mungkin aku harus mencari arah tujuan ku sendiri. Aku harus kuat kan semangat
supaya angan-angan ku in dapat dicapai. Mungkin ade wau yang lebih indah
daripada wau yang aku miliki sekarang.

2009-11-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. I'm sleepy. I tried to study for my exam. But it cannot register.
Maybe i should rest first then continue study. I mean not continue but start
studying.

Next week need to go back to camp. Is that a good news?? Errm...

2009-11-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

"Perfection is not attainable, but if we chase perfection we can catch exellence"

2009-11-07T20:20:00.002+08:00

This quote has been in my head for a few days now. I need to share this
quote to my friends who have difficulties in managing their budget.

"You have to know between want and need"

This quote i think is a very important tool for you to increase your savings.
I give you an example. I really WANT this T-shirt because it has a very nice
cutting and it really fits my body perfectly well.
Another example is. I NEED this T-shirt because i need to wear it when there is
a gathering with friends or family. Futhermore i do not have this T-shirt.

Do you get it. You on your own have to set your own line to distinguish between
NEED and WANT.

Another quote i heard it somewhere. "Its not about having a big salary to become
a millionare but it is how much do you save that money".

2009-11-05T21:41:00.001+08:00

Sedih sungguh hati ku ini...Teramatlah sedih...

2009-11-01T18:04:00.002+08:00

Just browsing my photos at FB. I miss all my friends. I miss the sweet memories.
I know i have to look ahead. I shall look ahead.

Guys will not forget things or any occasion which is important/special to them.

I just need to Tawakal to Allah. He knows best.

2009-10-26T15:03:00.002+08:00

I had a dream early in the morning. That dream make me feel down at the same
time make me re think back. Oh God why do i dream bout that.

I will try not to think about that dream too much because i know it is just
a dream. A emotional dream for me. What is your purpose in this world? Just
remember that wan.

Today i will be booking in. Just too many things to study and too many homework
to be done. I need to use my time wisely in the camp. Madrasah exam is just around
the corner. To be exact in 3 weeks time. And i have not done any revision. Someone
said to me why i have not revise? Then i think back..Why eh?? I can give a million
reasons. But i shall not find any reason coz this is not my style. Cey mcm paham
je aku ni. In short, MP eh.... hehe :P

2009-10-25T02:32:00.004+08:00

People said that when you enter NS your mind will stop thinking.
Is that true? Maybe yes. Coz right now i just do not want to think
anything. How can this happen wan. I need to change it. I do not want
to waste my 2 years in NS.

When you think you can do it then you will definitely make it to the
top. Provided that you push to your limit. Do i push myself wan???
That is the question that keeps bothering me. I think i'm just too
lazy. But i want to start reminding myself that i will live in this
world not more than 100 years. How short can it be?? Errm.

But i just want to enjoy myself. I mean when i book out, go out with
my friends and not go to classes. Sat and sun morning. But wan if you
think you want to enjoy in this world then think back wan. What is the
reality wan? Will you live foever???

The truth is that i'm not ready to have any additional responsibilities.
But Riduwan remember this wan. You cannot think about yourself. There is
someone or maybe a few ppl depends on you. Rely on you to make a change.
To change me, myself and to change your surrounding. I'm a normal person
with too much sins.

Please Riduwan think back. Think. Think. Not think just about yourself.
One day you will carry one of the most important responsibility. That is
a son to my parents, a husband to my wife and father to my children.
Not to forget a brother to my younger brother.

Please show me the straight path.

2009-10-18T15:59:00.002+08:00

Pabila ku jejak kaki ku di taman indah. Terdapat bunga mawar seluas lautan.
Tetapi entah mengapa sekuntum bunga mawar yang jauh kelihatan sungguh istimewa, menarik. Ia dapat memikat hati kecil ku. Aku ingin sekali memetik sekuntum bunga mawar yang begitu indah. Namun aku dipisahkan oleh sebatang sungai yang agak deras.
Bagaimanakah ku ingin memetik sekuntum bunga mawar di sana? Aku tidak berdaya
untuk berenang melintasi air yang agak deras dan dalam. Aku hanya berbekalkan kapak. Patutkah aku membina sampan? Supaya dapat ku merintasi sungai itu?

Sekarang aku ingin membina sampan yang utuh supaya aku dapat merintasi sungai dan
memetik sekuntum bunga mawar yang kelihat sungguh indah dimata ku. Namun persoalannya. Berapa lamakah aku dapat menyiapkan sampan itu???? Aku hanya berusaha
dan tawakal pada Ilahi.

I express my feeling through this sajak. Hope you enjoy it.

2009-10-18T15:41:00.001+08:00

If you enjoy doing what you do. You will do things with passion. When passion
comes you will do your very best in what you do.

I'm trying to enjoy what i do.

2009-10-10T07:55:00.002+08:00

I realise some important points that i can learn in my life.

In order for you to become a leader you need to take it seriously. That is
essential. You need to be responsible and competent enough to become a leader.
You need to be the role model under you. If you as a leader made mistake admit
it and improve on it. If under you made mistake tell them.

I reflect back the years that i became a leader. I just realise that i still
have many areas to improve on. Too many.

I'm adapted to my NS life. Alhamdulilaah. I just do not know what to blog
during my NS life. Coz there are too many exciting things happen in 5 days. So
its really been hard. But yes for now the only exercise that make me suffer is
jogging. hahaha. If only i enjoy jogging? How can i start enjoy jogging? Any
idea?

Today i will rest my body. No exercise. Recovery stage. Hahaha mcm paham je aku
ni. Recovery ke atau malas nk jogging. Whahahaha.

2009-10-04T15:41:00.002+08:00

Apakah tujuan hidup di dunia ini? Adakah untuk menagih cinta dari seorang
insan? Atau tujuan untuk menikmati nikmat-nikmat yang ada di dunia ini?
Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku telah diseliputi oleh jerubu yang telah menjejas
penglihatan ku ini.

Later i will book in. I will definitely miss the time spent with ~~~. But this is life. You will not get what you want. You only will get what you need. Only Allah
knows. I can only pray.

Ok aku nk kene gi jalan raye. Tros gi camp...Byeee people....see you next week
and wait for my updates...hehehe....

Mcm laa popular blog aku ni ade orang nk bace..Wahahahah...!!

Byeeee

2009-10-03T08:03:00.002+08:00

Sebelum ku menyelam dalam ke lubuk hati mu. Aku berfikir. Patutkah ku
berbuat demikian. Kerna ku tidak mahu perkara yang tidak diingini berlaku.
Perjalanan hidup ku masih jauh. Jalan hidup nya lagi jauh. Aku tidak
mahu perasaannya diseliputi kasih dan sayang antara kami berdua. Dia akan
bertemu ramai jejaka pabila dia berada di sana. Jejaka idamannya.

Aku tidak mahu menunggu cinta yang tidak terbalas. Namun ku sanggup
tunggu walaupun ia mengambil masa yang lama. Ia mengambil masa untuk ku
tahu siapa kah dia sebenarnya. Ia mengambil masa. Mungkin masa yang begitu
lama. Namun kini kehadiran ku tidak mahu membebankannya. Kerana jauh lagi
perjalanan yang harus ditempuhi. Ku hanya berdoa kepada Yang Maha Esa. Supaya
memiliki yang sempurna.

Just revising my last minute exam just now. Yesterday just returned from camp.
I thought i lose at least 1 kg. But i nvr lose any weight. :( aiyoooooooo.
I really can't wait class to start at NS. I can start to study and take test. yes.
I miss studying.

This week NS is very tiring. I do not know why. But i know my whole body is aching.
I need to buy MP3.....!! Start listening to music and radio. I really lost touch
with the world outside. Seriously. Yesterday when i book out from my camp i tab
my ez link as usual. Then there is an error. I paid my bus fare using coins. After
paying my bus fare i saw this note. Exchanging of ez link, 30 september 2009.
OMG. Its already 2nd oct. How can i miss that.

Ok sekarang aku nk gi carik makan kat dapur kerana perut ku ini telah bermain
irama yang begitu merdu sekali. Irama yang selalu ku dgr pabila ia kekosongan.
hahahha...

2009-09-27T14:29:00.002+08:00

OOh my God.....punye la berat hati ni nk book in kat camp jap agi...
Aaaar....!!

Dah lah my old MP3 batt die dah tk ok. Mesti when i use 1 or 2 jam mesti
die mati. I need to change my mindset fast if not i will suffer in NS.

I've yet to jalan raye with my friends. InsyaAllah next next week. haha..
Sabar je la wan yeee. Tunggu agi 2 minggu.

Great news..I just ate Mega Mc Spicy just now for lunch...!! Wohooo...thats
great. Now i want to lose 5 more kg.

3 months and 1 week to POP.

2009-09-25T21:06:00.002+08:00

OOh my God....i do not what feeling is this...feeling of happiness, sadness
all in 1...

Lost touch with the outside world after being enlisted for 3 weeks in NS.
What's the latest news in Singapore? In the world? What about my friends?

Its been tiring for the past 3 weeks. I'm getting a firm grip to the training there.
I've learn many valueble lessons there. InsyaAllah i will become a better person.
A better person in appreciating life.

Now my legs are all cramp. Especially my calf. OOO my....it hurts especially early
in the morning.

Anw talk about my future. Tmr i have a test...!! Sounds interesting right?? Yess
of course if only you have studied. But the interesting thing is that i have not
study for the test..haahaha....!!!!!!! How can i squeeze all the infomation into
my head within 1 hour. I'm sleepy right now.

But what to do need to study.

2009-09-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah you know what i want.....I put the trust on You....You know what
is best and what is bad for me...

10 days past for the first week of NS. I really feel tired. There is a lot
of stories to tell.

Raya is 1 day away. And i do not feel any excitement of Hari Raya.

2009-09-06T02:44:00.001+08:00

Can it get any worse...?? Hanya padaMu aku berdoa..

2009-09-06T02:19:00.002+08:00

Its really important that there is someone to lead. A capable leader.
A leader which is being respected not because of his status but
because of his ability to lead. Lead with knowledge and wisdom.

MasyaAllah.. That is y the first few quranic revelation is Surah Iqra'.
I really now starting to understand the hikmah behind it.

The only thing that can change your life is knowledge. So people and urge
myself do invest in on gaining more knowledge. Knowledge which is
praiseworthy.

I cannot sleep but i desperately need to sleep....i just can't figure out
how to change my sleeping patern within these 2 days before going to NS.
hahahhahaha...

2009-09-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

6 more days to NS...........!!!!!

2009-08-31T17:34:00.000+08:00

Alahamdullilaaah...Today is my last day working as Pizza Delivery. A lot of
experience that i had gain. I've been working for more than 1 year...hhehe..
But now i shall miss the food and the friends and the most sad part is that
i will not get to ride motocycle anymore. I will miss riding for sure maaan.
Eventhough just now i merely had an accident at the carpark. Just love the feeling
of riding a bike.

This is the period of my transition life. I'm too comfortable with my life now.
So next is NS...hahaha..

I have a mix feelings. I'm feel scared because i have to change my sleeping cycle
drastically during my NS. Futhermore for the first 10 days in the camp i will be
fasting. Can my body take it?? Errrrmmmm...Only 1 thing can make me persevere.
This will be a very very very hard and challenging test.

Yesterday my Ngee Ann Friends had an Iftar together...Waaaah i miss them sey...!!
We are alumnissssssss. heheh. (dah graduate kate kan) First we played table tennis
my fav sport. hahaha..I miss table tennis and i got to pour out all my feelings
at the table tennis game. Then we played badminton. hahaha...Sempat ni ngah puase2 gi
lak relax2 ke. But it was very fun...!!

Let me tell you some of the highlights that made me smile and laugh. hahahaha....

First is Husni....!! He wanted to show us in his campmates how he serve the table tennis
ball. This is just demo after sholat maghrib. You know what, he hit the bench real hard
while doing the demo. We were shock....!! and he can smile somemore..haha..
Lps tu Fizah..hahah..she search for food before breaking our fast. Then she found a
stick and on it there is "Happy birthday" hahaha..I can still remember. Without
realising it she read it loud, "Happy birtday" then she ask what is this for. I knew it
was for me and for Yasmin coz her birthday was also on september. So i pretend that
i heard nothing. Then everyone was silence. hahahah!! Then Bilal said "Aku mcm nk
berenang kat swimming pool" haha...what a comment bilal...Tkde link...
And Taufik he is not a huge eater anymore...waaaah first time sey die ckp die dah kenyang.
hahah...I think when you reach at certain age you realise that. Peace eh taufik.hehe..
Bilal dgn kelakar die selalu.haha..All of them made my day yesterday..I'm sure they
are happy too to see each other.

So now i can keep myself busy packing my stuff for NS. [ :-) + :-( = :-/ ]

2009-08-28T14:42:00.003+08:00

Generations past. There must be some changes if not, drastic changes in
our world that we live in. From political to social to technology etc etc etc.

These are just my thoughts. If any of the comments that i made are wrong please
do let me know.

Al-Quran is the primary source of knowledge. Al-Quran do not give us a detailed
instruction of what to do. But Al-Quran gives us the generalisation. It gives us
values. Why values and not intructions??
As a human being we have a faculty of rationalisation. And what are the first few
verses that was being revealed to our Prophet Muhammad SAW?? The translation on the
first verse is "Read! In the Name of your Lord Who has created (all the exists)".

Read. What did the Golden Age of Islamic civilisation do? Remember during that time
Islamic civilisation do not have tonnes of book to read. So they collect all the books from all over the world from varieties of language. Why did they do this?
But how do they understand our language? This is the solution. They translate
all the books into Arabic Language. So that they could read. Understand then produce
a new sets of knowledge or improve on the knowledge that was exist.

This is how we relate to the values that Al-Quran has. Using a new set of knowledge
but driven by the values of the Al-Quran, should i say the Syaria (Al-Quran and the
Sunnah of Muhammad SAW). Fiqh is the result of this. Meaning fiqh is not a static facts. But it keeps changing from generation to generation. (This is a summary of
first few chapters of the book that i read, "Islamic Sciences". Correct me if i'm wrong or i interpret the book wrongly")

So do we have a new set of ideas that is driven by the Syaria to tackle today's
issues?

So what can Singapore do. To be specific what can the Islamic Institution do to
produce thinkers of Islam. (To understand today's world we need to understand
the knowledge of circularism and Islamic knowledge too).

Maybe insyaAllah next time i will come out with solutions. These solutions
may be wrong because i do not have vast knowledge about Islam and Circularism.

Have a meaningfull Ramadhan to all the Muslims in the world.

2009-08-27T16:47:00.002+08:00

I just return from work...Its been raining heavily...And i got to
use my raincoat...hahaha..!! coz i just bought it a few weeks ago
but i do not have the chance to use it during raining..that's fun
though...

Anw its had been an exciting week for me. A lot of things had been
happening. But it seems that it cheer me up before going to NS..haahaha..

2009-08-27T10:12:00.003+08:00

Today as usual nk kene pergi keje....I just can't wait to stop werking!!

That should be very very fun...i think i have 3 days of werking..Today i
think shall be a relax day at werk coz everyday its been like that. Its
Ramadhan can't you remember....Less order...I love to werk in the morning
because of many reasons. First so that i shall not do closing, second because
most of the riders got class they are still schooling. So i'm free in the
morning so y not work in the morning right??

OMG 12 more days to my NS...!! hahaha...I will get new friends and new
experiece of my life maaaaan...Holding guns..!! etc etc....But the sad part i will miss my old friends.

Anw i had a dream. hehehe...This dream goes like this. There is one lady
wrote on her msn nick she refers to me lah. (Kate mimpi i should know). She said. "I want you to say 1 word to me" If i think back it is not one word but 3 words. The answer to that words are: cheng cheng cheeeeeeng..
Please fill in the blanks for me. " I ____ you"
Sampai terbawak ke mimpi la aku ni..."I cannot say it to you because i do not know
you. I only know you through someone which is very close to you. But
its too early to say thing out. Let it be." Ini jawapan aku bile aku dalam mimpi
tu. But it can't happen in the real life. Can it??

Ok laaa..aku nk kene pergi keje ni...

Assalamualaikum.........

2009-08-27T01:23:00.002+08:00

Ku hanya mampu bersenyum.................

2009-08-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

Suaranya merdu pabila kedengaran. Hati ku ini tidak dapat melupakan.
Dia amat pintar bermadah. Amat cekap menyusun kata. Namun itu adalah
khayalan. Khayalan yang insyaAllah akan menjadi kenyataan.

==============================================

Alamaaaaaaak tk bole tido sey...haaaizzz....asek pikir je...and it keeps
me awake....

2009-08-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

This is just my thoughts.......

Islamic declination in controlling the world today is because we failed to
realise the importance of praiseworthy knowledge.

Shari'a is the most fundamental of knowledge in Islam. How the Golden Age of
Islamic civilisation was being establish. They knew explicitly the Shari'a
law. Hence generates massive Philosophers, Engineers etc.

2009-08-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

Tadi ku menyelam lautan yang penuh dengan kenangan.

Kenangan yang indah bagaikan pelangi nun di awan sana dan juga kenangan
yang tidak indah bagaikan bahtera terapung di lautan bergelora. Pabila
ku melangkah setapak hati ku dipanah oleh satu perasaan. Perasaan yang
begitu susah untuk ku tafsir mengunakan hanya fikiranku yang waras ini.

Setapak demi satapak ku menuju dekat dengan orang-orang yang telah mencurahkan
segala ilmunya. (okok susah laa nk formal sgt ni)

Anw just now i just went to my secondary school....!!! Waaaaaaaaah...!! 4 years
is a very very very long time. Dunearn secondary school really had mould me
into a better person. Especially the teachers there.

I should be thankful to Mr Vijay and Cikgu Supandi because they are the one who
really impact my life. Not to say that other teachers not important but they
are the most important teachers.

I still remember Mr Vijay slap my face because i did not attend math olympiad
training. And that slap goes down straigt into my heart.

Cikgu Supandi make me realise that Malay language is a very important language
to master.

Not forgetting Sepak Takraw mould my life too...!! I'm proud to say that maaan.
It really do.

And i still remember those days when i chase after this one lady. Btw i nvr felt
that feeling before. hahahah...kelakar sey igt balek. Ape nk jadi aku ni wan...haha.

You know what...!! My friend Khairul still remember my birtdate....!! I was shocked
sey....

Today is the most exciting day for me.

2009-08-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

Adakah bahasa melayu kita hampir pupus?

Memang saya akan tabik
kepada sesiapa yang mahir bertutur dlm bahasa melayu sekaligus
menguasai bahasa inggeris. Dan berasa begitu bangga kepada sesiapa
yg tahu berbahasa arab kerana bahasa arab adalah bahasa yg akan
digunakan di Syurga, bahasa Al-Quran dan bahasa arab telah dipakai
oleh Junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad SAW.

Di manakah kita berada sekarang?

2009-08-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

Hari bertukar hari,
Aku kini semakin mengerti,
Mengerti akan hidup berpasangan,
Kerana itu fitrah insan.

Aku tidak mengerti. Mengapa pabila aku terjumpa bunga merah itu hati aku
berdebar. Namun sekuntum bunga ros itu berzaman barulah menjelma. Aku
tidak paham hati aku ini. Boleh kah aku membuat bunga-bunga ini sebagai
perhiasan kebun? Belum masanya ku mencari bunga yg ku idam-idamkan
selama ini yg akan ku letak di kamar hati ku. Biarlah aku serah kan pada
Ilahi. Dia yg akan mengerak kan hati ku ini.

2009-07-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

I just feel lonely. Sometimes that feeling i have to put aside.
I really miss my old friends from secondary school. Especially
Khairul. I have to admit that we have same level of frequency.

I still remember when we played sepak takraw together. We know
each other's movement and also i know exactly where he wants the
sepak takraw ball when he wanted to kill the ball. We do not communicate
at all that is how we know each other when playing sepak takraw.

Anw put my feeling aside.

Just now i had sepak takraw training at Ngee Ann. And my friend
commented something which increase my level of confidence by a
few notch. After that played bowling alone. But it was fun though.
Got to improve my skill a little bit (mcm nk masok competition je aku
ni). But a bit boring coz do not have friend(s) to play with me.

I do not express my feelings to anyone. I do not share my happiness
to anyone. I do not share my sadness to anyone. Only to someone that i
trust.

2009-07-29T01:22:00.001+08:00

Aku perasan aku nye Face book aku nye gambar dah lame sey...hahahah..

Maklum laa tkde camera...haha..someone can sponsor camera...anyone?? knock
knock anyone...??

2009-07-27T23:53:00.002+08:00

Lega rasa di hati.

Anw td ujan punye laa lebat. Dah la tk de proper baju ujan. Then antar
order sume jauh2.

Kini aku pikir kembali.....

2009-07-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

Kepada FB:

Awan ibarat kan hati. Air suci ibarat kan kasih yg suci atau cinta yg
suci. Bumi adalah seseorang lebih tepat gadis.

So agak2 dah tau la ye interpretasi puisi ni...?

2009-07-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

Biarkan ia mendung di awan, biar air hujan terkandung di awan yang
kelam, kerana belum masanya ia mencurahkan air suci ke bumi. Apabila
masanya tiba ia akan mencurah jua.

2009-07-19T00:43:00.002+08:00

Alhamdullilaaah i have good friends. Giving good advice. Alhamdullilaah.

Just now i had arabic course. It is 3rd week already. And you know what
just now there is a relieve teacher. Then he ask me, "Masmuka?" Then you
know what?? I was brain freeze. Then i accidentally said "alamak" Ape dah
wan itu soalan punye la senang then i've been practising it for many times.
During class i was like going mad about myself of not answer the question.
Haaaaiiz....

2009-07-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Sometimes experience give you important lessons in life. But sometimes
we do not experience some of it. By observing other living things we can
appreciate life.

Just now a snail thought me not to give up even though it seems impossible.
A butterfly thought me how to be smart and a lovely bright yellow bird thought
me how to be confident.

Yes. I cannot enter my house because i bring the wrong house keys. Can you
imagine.

For the first time after a long long long time i feel angry that someone
told me that i was not good playing Sepak Takraw. I hope that will make me
a much better player.

Let this feeling be a secret for myself.

2009-07-12T23:31:00.004+08:00

This is where i need to decide my future.

I just realise that our Prophet Muhammad SAW is too special.
Jazakallah Ustaz for telling us. I may be a bit late. hehehe.

2009-07-11T01:23:00.002+08:00

Your life is too short. Right? I think most of us agree with that.
While i was doing my financial planning in my head then some questions
hit me on my head.

Y do i plan all this things? Y do i need to? Then i have my own answer.
I want to be a Muslim which gives to the community and not the community
gives me. In other words if i start building my safety net for the future
then InsyaAllah i will be able to live life to the fullest.

I really agree that your friends can change you. Am i right to say that
Riduwan? I realise that when your friends have their goals in life
and know what they are doing then you may think back. Do i have my
goal in life?

I just want to become someone which is useful to the community.

May Allah bless those who is striving hard to make Singapore community especially
Muslim community a much more successful one. Amiiin...

2009-07-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

What a tiring day today...just reached home from werk and i just
here blogging.

Here is a great news..!! I had receive my NS enlistment. Yaaaaaaaaay.!!
Alhamdullilaaah. I got police. :-) :-)

Do you want to know something.??? In my life when i wear uniform there
must be blue colour. Yes.!!!! When i was in primary school my school uniform
was blue same as my secondary. When i went to polytechnic there was no
proper uniform so that never count. Now going NS i will wear police uniform.
Which is blue in colour.. :-) Seriously i think police uniform looks smarter
and more handsome. hahaha. Perasaan btol aku ni..haha

Anw i will be enlisted on 8th Sept. Actually i can't wait to go NS. Meet new
friends and also get new experience and hopefully i get more mutured and
also i will become a better leader. :-)

You know only 1 type of girl which can make my heart really melt. You know
who?? When a girl where her hijab with loose clothing. MasyaAllah only
Allah knows my heart pumping hard.

I want to ask this question. Why do you study? So that i can work for the best
company. Then why do you work? So that i can earn money.

Do you study because of getting money???

2009-06-24T01:22:00.002+08:00

I think i can become CID..You know y?? I want to find someone's blog.
I do not have any idea if that person have a blog or not. Then i think
and think and think...walaaah i get it...hehehehe...and i believe Singapore
is very small. So if you know someone that is somehow related then
walaaaah again.....hahahaa...what a thinking Riduwan....

I feel ashame of myself because my english is very poor...

2009-06-21T01:06:00.002+08:00

Let me pour out some of my thoughts that i have accmumulated
all this while..

Firstly i really feel that those who are rich will have more power.
Is that true? If not than why do most or all of the richest men stay
rich but the poorest men remain poor or should i say become poorer.
I feel sad to see that there are people out there in the world are in
hunger. If only rich people give some of their wealth to the poor
people?

Secondly i admire with these few ladies. Its hard to find ladies nowadays
protect their "aurat". Expecially their feet. MasyaAllah...Alhamdullilah..
I want my wife to be like that. InsyaAllah. Its me as usual and men out
there want to be loved. But if i were in relationship first of all i do
not want to create too many sins for myself. I have enough sins already.
I think too many. But if i were to marry the person i'm still young
maaaan and i have not work yet..!! How can i support my family?

This is my rough plan. Only Allah knows my plan better. After i finish NS,
my age will be 24 years old. Wow that is old. hehe. I plan to work first
for 2 years then continue University. EErrrrmmm how old am i??? Yes 29 if
i take 3 years in Uni. 29 beb...!! Bile mau kahwin. Back to my first
point, if i want to marry at the age of 29 and i have relationship with a
girl than i need to wait for 8 more year.

8 YEARS....!!!!!!!!!!!!! So its wise not to have relationship for now. :-)
I try to divert my attention to some other important things.

Then i think back. If i get married is that my whole life. Live happily
ever after. Do you realise something? We often plan our future until we
get married. Then after married then what happen?

PS: Kalau ade rezeki and ade jodoh ape salahnye kahwin mude kan? hehehe

2009-06-20T01:08:00.001+08:00

I'm beginning to know and understand why it happen in this manner..
I also know get a better picture of where i'm heading to..

2009-06-19T01:10:00.002+08:00

Good memories always hunt you....

2009-06-17T14:42:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

Helloooo...!! Do you all remember me..?? I guess yes...coz its has been
a long time since i've update my blog right..

Still waiting for NS..NS have not call me up..maybe there is a reason
behind it..So making full use of my time while waiting for NS..

When i think back what i had gone through. I never feel regret even a
little bit. There is a reason behind it. I really apply most of my skill
that i had learnt all this while. But still i know i need to learn more.

Just update the latest event that i was involved. That is APEX camp. For
the first time in my life i become a programmer with one of my old friend.
I learnt a lot with the committee. Should i say new friends.

I pray that NPMSS will be much more successful than last year. More benificial
to the community. Eventhough i'm not the exco now but i'm still part of it
before.

Making full use of my "Holidays"...

2009-04-23T00:50:00.002+08:00

Yes i know its been more than a month since i've not blog..

Today i want to blog because i feel lonely..Maybe i need to forget
bout this feeling..Just ignore this feeling..

I realise that i had just graduated from Ngee Ann Poly. I really
miss all my good times with my friends. I really do. :-(
The ups and downs.

Kecantikan wajah wanita itu tidak akan dpt membuta kan mata ku.
Tapi akhlak dan agamanya akan dpt menawan hati ku ini.

2009-03-14T02:12:00.002+08:00

I had this dream...Its hard to explain...

Anw i think i'm much more busy when i'm holiday then having
school..y eh? But its good laa..Tak la duduk kat umah goyang
kaki jee..

I just update my life now..I do not incline with sepak takraw..
Yes its true..! Can you believe it..Now i'm starting to go into
dikir barat..Maybe it is just for a while..And also i realise
something. Money cannot buy everything. Money is not something
that you can hold of forever. So we have to think what we will
be holding forever.

I feel my life is half complete. I'm sure bout it. The other half
is for me to figure out.

Life is short. I think about it again and again. Everytime i think
bout it i feel much more convince. Find your true love. Love which
will remain forever and ever.
I feel that love without Allah pleasure is not love but "nafsu"
from human being. Who do not want love?

I met with my sepak takraw coach just now. Long time i have not seen
him. Its interesting and challenging life keeps on unfolding everyday.

I realise i'm not perfect.

This post is like in short sentence because that is my thought. Sowie
bout that.

2009-02-28T02:17:00.003+08:00

This post is a reminder for myself then to my fellow Muslim
Brothers.

Why do we as a brother, male gender with higher in all aspect of
capabilities, we still do not take charge of the leader role?

I don't agree with you Riduwan. What are you trying to say? Are you trying
to say that all the leader roles are control by feminine ladies?

No. I do not say that the ladies control the leadership roles. But
i said that we, brothers do not take charge.

What do you mean that we brothers not taking charge of the leadership roles?
What are you talking Riduwan? I need your explaination!!

I just want to post this question. If we, brothers become the leader.
Do we push ourselve? Or the women, ladies push us? I'm still happy that
not all male leaders are like that. Only about 0.5% do that (maybe).But i'm afraid that we, brothers do not try hard enough.

As i said again. This post is a reminder for myself first then for my Muslim
brothers. For any Muslimah (sisters) if you were to read this blog and this post,
hurt or make you angry. A thousand apologies. I do not mean to hurt your feeling.
But it is a reminder for us, brothers.

2009-02-26T00:38:00.001+08:00

Cume Allah je tau ape yg aku nk uat bile holiday...

2009-02-23T23:40:00.002+08:00

Jobs where are you.....!! Here i come....i know you want me...
haha....

Just browsing through friendster..and i miss a lot of people..
all my memories running through my head..haha...

2 exam papers left..should be studying now...but what i do...??
Aiyoo wan....

I'm really happy that school going to end soon..for Ngee Ann i mean
insyaAllah i will continue..

I thinking very2 hard what shall i do besides werking pizza...
I cannot survive man..maybe i shall werk 24 hours yaa..haha..kidding..

2009-02-16T02:11:00.002+08:00

Hati ku ini telah dikunci rapat. Ku tidak tahu siapakah yg dpt membuka
kembali pintu hatiku ini. Ku menanti dan menanti siapa kah gadis yg
jumpa dengan kunci yg hilang itu. Yang kini hilang entah dimana.

2009-02-16T01:24:00.003+08:00

I'm really thinking hard on what i want to work after school. Easiest
way is just to work full-time pizza but after intensive or maybe some
mathematical calculation i think work pizza alone cannot survive. So
thinking of taking up relief teaching as my main job and pizza as my
part time. After thinking deeply using my full analytical power, i think
i'm opening a shop selling stuff. That is just an idea. But i will work
on that.

You know i'm starting to think about what's coming next or maybe there
is no tmr for me. Maybe this is my last blog entry.

Do you ever think how perfect human beings are? God given us eyes, hearing,
heart, a pair of legs and many many more all in 1. If you still doubt about
it then why not you sell your body parts? Try sell your both eyes for $25 000,
ooh i think that is not enough. Put it $500 000. Ok i increase it $1 000 000.
So if anyone have $1 000 000 and willing to buy both of your eyes. Do you want
to sell it????

Our brain is powerful that its application is almost unlimited. So
think back. Who is the One that create our wonderful body?

Some people said that the Universe is created by itself.

With the moon orbiting the earth, the earth orbiting the sun. The earth
itself is full of wonders.Have you ever thought of the simple creation.
The clouds. How do the clouds float by itself without any pillars?
Rain falling to the ground in a form of droplets but not in a splash of
water. Why?

May i leave this entry with that question.

2009-02-12T23:32:00.003+08:00

At some stage of your life you have to move on. You have to
change yourself. Sometimes what you had learnt in the past
without learning new things now will bring you to no where.

I want to keep myself realy busy after my school. And hopefully
this is not my last year of learning but this is just the beginning
of my new chapter of my life.

8 DAYS TO EXAM......!!!!

2009-02-10T10:05:00.000+08:00

2009-02-03T01:40:00.003+08:00

Let me start that worried me most...Just now during my WISP class
we talk about patriotic for Singapore. The question is like this..
If there is a war in Singapore do we want to fight for the love of
Singapore of we will run away..?

I admit that we live in Singapore is too, way too pampered..We live
so comfortably that we do not think about anything else but for our
pleasure..For example during lunch we have headache of choosing what
food to eat..Choosing of food can be headache sometimes, seriously..
This is Singapore..We have to treasure what we have now..
We do not worry about being attack by other countries..

Back to the question most of my male friends would run away if they
is a war going on in Singapore...If male do not want to defend Singapore
then do we aspect the female to defend our country. I really feel
worried that young Singaporean feel that way. Hopefully keeping my fingers
cross i hope that, that sort of youth male is a few only..

Also they commented about going NS..they said that y should All abled
male should go for NS..y not only male who want to go NS will then
be registered..Singapore is a small population and we need all our manpower
to defend our country...but if for example only a few volunteer becomes
NS men preparing them IF there is a war then i think not many will
volunteer...

Thats worry me most when we do not emphasis on loving for the country..

2009-01-19T22:38:00.002+08:00

Akan ku cuba melawan rase rindu ku ini..kerna rindu ku ini
hanyalah sia-sia belaka..Ku hanya ingin menanya khabar...
Namun ku rase itu mustahil...Hanya ku mampu hanyalah berdoa
agar kamu selamat...

Hidup ini kita bertemu dgn ramai kwn. Kawan yg pada suatu
ketika bersama-sama dan tiba-tiba dia hilang. Aku hargai
semua rakan2 ku. Aku tidak ingin merase sedih. Namun itu
kenyataannya.

Perjalanan ku ini hanya permulaan. Permulaan yg tidak tahu
kesudahan. Aku pasti ini adalah ketentuan Tuhan. Yang harus
ku tempuhi dgn berwawasan.

Aku rase kan mcm cpt sgt gitu mase berjalan tau...teramatlah
cpt...

2009-01-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

I do feel that most of the non-muslim does not understand that
Muslim have to eat halal food...But i feel sad that some Muslims themselve
eat non-halal food...Allah tell us not to eat non-halal food coz
Allah knows best for us human being...

If only All Muslim explain to their non-muslim friends that they
cannot eat non-halal food and show that they eat halal food all the
time i'm sure that most of Singapore here will have more halal food...

2009-01-13T21:58:00.002+08:00

I admit that i'm not perfect...i'm lacking of a lot of things...
But i also know that i do have strengths...

You see when i start school i do not have much time to blog...
This post is being force by someone...He always force me to
update my blog...But i know if i update it i do not know what
to post...but he said nvrm just post what you think...there is
no right or wrong...so here i am posting to satisfy his feeling..
If not he will not feel happy...

Here i am feeling happy when i update this blog...A lot of things
happening...actually not much though..its like 9 days of school
and i have not study for my exam...wasting my time is my first
hobby...is it..?

My room is filled with books but i'm not sure how much i read
all this books...i'm sure i have not read finish all the books..
I still remember my friend said to me..."ape gunenye kau pinjam
buku klau kau tk bace" yup2 its true..

I'm going to revise my chinese language after 1 month of not
revising it...haha..aiyoooooo riduwan what is this...and tmr
is my lesson...haha...i do not know to congratulate you or not
wan for being soooo good...hehe...

Maybe i should stay in China for 1 month or maybe a few months so
that i can speak Chinese much more easier...maybe......

2009-01-08T00:26:00.002+08:00

First of all Alhamdullilaaah we live in a country where peace at
out side..May we not taking this for granted..

How do you feel when you do not have any shelter..? Do not have
any food to eat...? I bet youth in Singapore is lucky
enough not to go through that...Alhamdullilaaah..Can you see how
lucky we are...

I'm at my room sitting comfortably at my chair blogging and doing my
proj while people out there suffer...I know its little that we
can do to help them...But i really hope that we Dua for them....
Our Muslim Brothers and Sisters...This is a test for them...

Do you know that how pampered are we..? Especially for those who
like to complain..Why you complain..? If you complain for the
betterment of the community then i think its good but provided that
you do something to change it..I'm trying to do something by blogging
and reminding myself and my fellow muslim friends..I think that is
the least that i can do now..doing somthing to change..

May Allah protect our Muslim friends...And i urge me and you try to
show the Beauty of Islam..change the Stereotype of the world...

This entry is just a reminder for myself especially...This is just from
my thought, if i happen to hurt anyone's feeling than i apologise...

2009-01-06T00:14:00.002+08:00

Early today i just went to NS medical check up..It all went
smoothly and luckily Syaheer too happen to take the same day
and time with me so we went together....

Luckily also today is not presentation for project. Waaah coz
i have not complete..I need to complete it asap..

I joining dikir barat to play rebanne for Ngee Ann Open house
which is on this thurs...I do not know y i want to suddenly
perform...I think because it is just 3 more days to practise
so that is not that bad.Its being a long time i never hold that
rebanne...and luckily i not lost that much touch..It's for the
sack of last performance before i leave Ngee Ann Polytechnic..
So ya maybe thats the reason y...

I'm toooooooooo sleepy.....
K going to sleep........

2009-01-04T14:16:00.002+08:00

I recieved this email about hari kiamat...they stated bout hari
kiamat bile...

Aku ini tidak ada byk ilmu tapi bile pertame kali aku terima email
tu die ckp agak2 hari kiamat bile...

Diambil oleh Hadith 40 (Terjemahan dan Syarahnya oleh
Al-Ustadh Mustafa 'Abdul Rahman...

Muke surat 73..Ini sebahagian sahaja hadith yg saya petik...
"Akhirnya ia berkata (meneruskan pertanyaannya lagi): Maka
khabarkan kepadaku darihal hari Qiamat. Rasulullah SAW menjawab:
Tidaklah yang datang daripadanya lebih tahu daripada orang yang
bertanya. Kalau begitu, katanya, khabarkan kepadaku dari tanda-tandanya
sahaja. Rasullulah SAW menjawab: Tanda-tandanya itu ialah bila
hamba-hamba telah dilahirkan tuannya dan engkau lihat orang-orang
yang tidak berkasut, tidak berpakaian, miskin, pengembala kambing
(berbangga-bangga) menegakkan dan meninggi-ninggikan binaan"

Daripada hadith ini kita dpt tahu bahawa Rasullulah SAW pon tidak
tahu bila tahun terjadinya kiamat..beliau hanya dpt memberi
tanda-tandanya...

Natijahnya...Adakah sekirannya kita tahu hari kiamat sudah dekat
baru kita hendak beribadah..?? Kenapa kita tidak fikirkan tentang
berapa banyakkah telah kita beramal untuk kematian kita...??
Namun kita sibuk2 pikirkan tentang hari kiamat yg
kita tidak tahu bila harinnya...

Adakah kita beribadah kerana hari kiamat...?? Atau kita beribadah
kerana Allah..??

Semememangnnya apa yg saya tulis di blog ini hanya melandas kan
pikiran saya yg cetik dengan ilmu agama...Sekirannya saya salah tolong
tegur saya di tagboard dan doakan kemaafan saya...

2009-01-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

What i craving for all this while most of them had gone...

Yesterday i ate Mega Mc...Woooooow....!! I think untill today
i can feel the fullness in my stomach...And its quite a while
i've crave chapati with tima..And my parents bought for me
chapati...hehe...

Now i'm aiming to eat Mega Spicy and also burger at Burger King..
Maybe after a few days to come...

2009-01-02T00:59:00.002+08:00

First of all i want to say sowie for all things that i had
done...sekirannya aku pernah tercakap perkataan yg tersinggung
korang...atau pernah uat lawak yg melukakan hati korang..
mintak maaf aku minta...

Now i'm just trying to sprint to my finish line to get a
Diploma in Electrical Engineering...i do not want to just
become a normal Technician but i want to become an engineer
who help the community for the betterment..I want to go to
University...!! And be an Electrical Engineer...

2009-01-01T01:41:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum....di sini saye ingin membuke blog saye dgn mengucap
happy new year....Semoge tahun baru ini akan lebeh bermakne bagi saya...

Ku ingin sekali meletak kepahitan pada tahun 2008 ketepi dan ingin
berhadapan dekan tahun 2009 dengan cekal hati..ku tahu aku harus lebeh
kuat lagi...ku memang mengaku kesilapan2 ku yg pernah ku buat pada
sesiapa..itu memang kelemahan ku...Mintak maaf..

Aku teros terang disini...Aku ingin mencarik sekuntum bunga yg berduri
namun ia bermadu..Ku maseh mencarinya di taman...
Namun diri ku ini maseh belom pandai mencari sekuntum bunga itu...

2008-12-31T13:06:00.002+08:00

Ok lots of sugar and sweets inside my body....and the prob
with me is that i'm too lazy to exercise...you know what
i mean...anw really enjoying the food at swensen yesterday..
And fauzy cite kan the Great White Ape lagi.....hahaahaha...

Anw nice knowing all of you...hope our friendship starts here...
Including people who cannot attend yesterday...don worry we
can still meet some other day...insyaAllah....

Sometimes i just wonder...how much things i've done for
myself, for my fam and for the community...?? Its really little
should i say...I'm no longer a kid who depends on other people..
I'm the one who have to hold the light on my own and find my
own way...I have my own brain...what do you expect God have given
me all the best tools in the world..but its up to me to use
it for good cause or not...

So now school going to start soon and i'm just going to sprint
my last lap coz after that thats my end to my poly life...I really
love poly life...it really thought me alot of things that i cannot
get any where else...

Niari hari yg terakhir ibu aku jage budak...haaaiz i think its a
bit sad for me....but nvr life have to move on right...?

2008-12-30T00:06:00.003+08:00

Ingin ku meluahkan isi hati ini...

Ku bagaikan daun terapung-apung di dasar lautan. Tidak ada
tujuan dan tidak ada matlamat. Ku ingin kan tempat berpaut.
Berpaut supaya memberi ku semangat.

Ku tau ku harus bersabar. Ku harus melihat ke arah yang lebeh
luas. Tidak kah ku harus menempuh ombak yg besar seorang??
Aku rase aku tidak mahu fikir yg lama. Ku penat dan jemu kenangan
yg telah pon menjadi kenangan.

Ya Allah kuat kan semangat hamba mu ini. Aku tahu engkau dpt
membaca isi hati ku ini. Aku ingin supaya ku dekat diri ku pada
Mu. Ku ingin bersama insan yg ku idam2 kan selama ini. Tapi
siapa.?

Cinta memang indah. Cinta memang ku sanjung. Namun cinta boleh
melukakan. Cinta pon boleh merawat luka yg ada dihati.

Di bulan yg baek ini ku ingin hijerah diri ku ini supaya lebeh
baek. Ku tidak mahu "Yang di kejar tk dpt di gendung keciciran".

Kuat kan lah hamba mu ini....

2008-12-29T21:11:00.002+08:00

I just can't wait to start school...And finish my poly...!!
I realise that this is phase of life where it prepare me for
the real challenge...this challenge that i face is nothing
compare to other people or should i say the Sahabah2 Nabi SAW
and Muhammad SAW himself...their challenge in life...MasyaAllah
is much more challenging than mine...

If only i can travel around the world...I want to travel and the
nature how Allah have create the Earth..

I just return home from eating and going ICE SKATING....!!!
What did you expect for the first timer to go...of course you need
to fall right...so i fell 5 times...and the 4th time is the worst
coz its on my knee...haha...kk aku cite kan siket...

Aku mule gi la kat side2 seram laaa konon nye punye la slow...then
aku tgk orang...aku pelan2..then after 15 min aku dah tk ya depend
on the side..cey aku mcm tol je...dah 1 hour..adek aku gi ckp ngan
aku.."abg, abg tk glide ar" ape lagi...aku practise laa...aku practise
dah laju siket...tapi ade satu bende aku tk pass...aku tk tau mcm ane
nk STOP....hahah...kau tau aku dah glide then at one stage aku
termcm lost balance then aku terjatuh...haha..itu la die lutot aku
kene tu..adoooi...best nyeee...!! tapi best laa...

Lps 1hr 30 min kau tau ape back of my mind ckp...eh aku nk race orang...
hahaha....!!! Ape je la aku ni...race ngan budak kecik bole laaa...

Waaaaaah i nvr expect able to ice skate...I ate BURGER...tapi kat
KFC daaaaaah...ok laaa tu..tapi tk sedap sgt...tapi kentang die sedap...
Aku ckp mcm korang tk pernah mkm kentang gitu...

K proj i'm coming...........!!!

2008-12-28T15:17:00.002+08:00

1 proj down....3 to go....

I just realise that i stay at home for 6 days straight....Woow
that is a record for my poly life you know....Literally i never
step my foot outside the door...and its still counting...

My chicken pox is recovering and now i just have to wait 1 or 2 more
days before i can step out from my house...who want to join me eat
burger......!! :-) or join me watch movie...haha...if no one than
i just do it alone...follow my mood....haha...

I do not want to weigh my weight on the weighing machine...you know
y..?? coz that number shall rise..you know what i mean..so i just
slowly reduce my weight..How come i like to play sports but lazy
to exercise...you all understand...I also not that understand laa..
How come...??

I miss playing table tennis with taufik, bilal and husni...And also
badminton....Did you know (cey mcm kat encyclopedia) when my younger
brother and me when we were small we play badminton at home...you know
using what...guess...?? Our racket we use hard cover books and we use
a medium size balloon..hahah...that is the stage of my life when i improve
my badminton skill...not to say i play badminton very good..but i can
play for the sack of playing laa..

And the other sport which i miss is soccer....haha..entah aku bole lari
lagi ke tk...errrrmmm...Entah nape aku tk rase rindu kat takraw...gaknye
aku dah tk in touch with sepak takraw tk...?? Mungkin...

2008-12-27T23:28:00.003+08:00

Just now i watched this malay senetron at suria...
The tittle called Manjalara...am i getting the title
correct...??

Anw it caught my attention when the guy said that...
"Kadang2 kite terpilih salah orang"...Yup sometimes its
true...to get that right person is hard...i will not
fall easily for a women with just her appearance....yes
i do admit appearance is the first step for me to zoom
but the most important for me to know her inside...
Lesson learnt...I do not want to hurt anyones feeling...

I hate that feeling...

Perasaan cinta ku simpan di peti hati,
Peti yg kini telah mempunyai dua kunci,
Satu ku sengaja letak di sanubari,
Yang satu lagi entah di mana.

Ku nanti kan detik itu,
Detik dimana bidadari membuka peti hati,
Peti hati ku yg penuh madu,
Madu yg ku hanya beri pada yg peduli.

Ku ingin berterus terang di sini,
Engkau telah mengukir kan senyuman di bibir,
Senyuman yg sukar ku ukir,
Namun senyuman bersama hati.

Ku tahu kesilapan ku dulu telah mendewasakan ku,
Ku tahu senyuman tidak ertinya cinta,
Cinta sejati yg membawa redha,
Redha pada Tuhan yg Maha Kuasa.

I just cannot tulis puisi nanti air mate sume kuar...

Anw...moving on........

Aku dgr ade orang ckp cite Twilight bagos....Bagos ke??
ermm...aku lom tgk...hahaha...

2008-12-26T12:39:00.002+08:00

This is the result of me not going out but always in my room facing
my laptop...and doing other stuff but most of the time in my room...
The result is let me come out with a simple formulae for everyone
to understand yaaa....

(chicken X pox) + holiday = Home

Home - TV - Eating = Room

Room X Bored = BLOG

Walaaaaaah....a perfect equation that i think most of us understand
but it need a powerfull brain to derive with this fomulaes.....hahhaa...
Mcm paham je aku ni...

Ok sok MSS ade newspaper collection igt nk dtg tapi pikirnye pikir klau
aku jangkit kat orang agi susah...so my fomula for this is...

Long Term - Short term = ABSENT!!

K you know what i think the fomula werks perfectly right, right??

My Grandmother just arrived at my house to stay for a couple of days or
perhaps weeks...when she saw me she like want to go home already...aiyoo..
Then my mum like laugh very loud you know....

And you know my Grandmum said "wan kau cuti bape hari? nnk nk byr ganti
rugi bape hari tk kerja." hehehehehehehehahahahaha....i can't stop laughing
but at my heart...i just learn how to laugh at my heart by someone...
you know who you are with that skill of art....haha..
so when you see my crying maybe i might be laughing at my heart...hahahaah...

So new equation derive.....cheng cheng cheng..

Very Happy - Emotionless = Laugh at YOUR HEART...!!

Today there is a lot of new formulaes that i've derive at...so please do
subtitute my furmula n try out if my formula is true yaaaaaa....

Updating soon......!!

2008-12-25T13:02:00.002+08:00

I think my fever is recovering..Hopefully...
My laziness is stacking up...now weighing tones
and tones of it...there are 4 projs...but how
much you had done riduwan....?? hahahha...bole
katawe lagi eh.... :-/ eh niari christmas kan...??
I like lost touch with the outside world..i just
miss my clubhouse...

Just now i watched Britain's got talent on tv...
He change his life with that show...Woow...and
i really agree with Bro Nilun (not sure getting his
name right) but he said that we tend to follow others
when we do not excel in it...yes i think that is
happening...

Let me ask this simple questions to you...very simple
questions.

What are your strength...?? And what are your
weaknesses...??

I still cannot excactly know how electricity being
created....errrmmm...

2008-12-24T14:16:00.003+08:00

My fever is like stock market...sometimes when times are good it goes very high...
But when times are bad it goes low or sometimes at stable rate...haha...

Just browsing through pictures from people's multiply..Everything will come to
an end but the end is just the beginning of something...
I love this quote...i modified it.."Your past do not determine your future"
And also quote from micheal Jordan.."Perfect your strength and improve your
weaknesses"..

My craving for Burger King is gone for a moment...hahah...

Ngee Ann going to say bye2 to me....And NS going to say hello....

Let me reflect back what i had done during my poly life...

Yr 1...

Want to join sepak takraw only....but ended up joining MSS(Muslim Students' Society) , dikir barat and
also sepak takraw...Still in year 1 i'm become the president of sepak takraw...can you
imagine this group of people interviewed me and they asked me...."so if you have graduate....."
Wait........i'm still yr 1 and you ask me a question regarding graduate...hahah....so funny and
that time just laugh at my heart...haha....

Enjoying every moment in my 1st year...dikir barat i became awok2..ale2 aku gi la belajar
ngan kak huda maen rebanne...then harry ckp ngan aku..."wan aku nk kau training maen
rebanne" hahaha....aku ye kan aje....

Ooh my God when i see those video that is all my memories...anw me at the back middle...
and below is my bro hafiz...hahah...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fS77BL99yFo
That is my first and last jadi awok2 then maen rebanne...hahah....

I think i shall stop here...next time update 2nd yr... :-)

2008-12-23T12:29:00.002+08:00

2nd day offcially having chicken pox...my whole body covered with redness dots...
Its getting worst...i can feel that my internal body is strong but my external which
is my skin is weak..understand...?? So i spend most of my time sleeping..hopefully
that it can recover fast enough for me to eat swensen with my friends...my mc is
until 3rd jan...

The one and most sincere care for me right now is my mum...not to say that my dad
nvr care for me coz he need to werk right...my mum like care for me trying to do
everything that she could to make me feel comfortable...

But does not mean i'm sick my brain is mulfunction right...?? So i'm trying to do some
proj along the way....hope fully by making my brain werk a little bit more it will kill
all the germs....insyaAllah...

I cannot remember the pain that i went through during my childhood days...i think
when i get older the virus is getting stronger...but not to worry there is always hikmah..
InsyaAllah....

2008-12-22T18:34:00.002+08:00

I think the world is very small especially when technology take over our
world....

Yaaaay...i was browsing through someones blog and you guess what...my friend's
face is there....!! hahah...now i think i know why my face seems familiar to her...

hahaha....

2008-12-22T16:55:00.002+08:00

Do you love someone by just someones look....??
Or do you love someone because of someones akhlak....??

But for me it is always first impression counts...i do not demand
for a gorgeous lady....neither do i demand for a perfect lady
with a perfect akhlak....

Sometimes when i do talk bout this topic it seems that i cannot
answer it...

Anw i shall talk about other things.....

You know i have CHICKEN POX...!!! I know that i got chicken pox
during my childhood...i also do not know y i got it....maybe Allah
wants to clear some 0f my sins in the past...Amiiiin....I got mc...
that is the best part...from today till 3rd Jan....Woooooow.....
Luckily there is still holidays...if not i need to skip my lessons n i cannot
afford to do that coz i got 8 weeks before i'm taking my final exam n
i want to score as high as possible...then i'm done with my poly life....
Is that happy or not....?? Errrrmmmm...happy in a way and sad in
a way.....

Act today there is spring clean at musollah but i cannot come and also
there is sepak takraw camp...i also cannot come....aiyoooooo....

You cannot force someone to love you...

2008-12-21T14:10:00.002+08:00

Since a long time i nvr update my blog properly.....

I just feel that if i were to tell my life to the world maybe they do
not understand what i face now....they just read my blog n thats it..
Maybe that is one way to keep in contact with me....haha...maybe...

Lot of things happening in my life...

A few days back i went to camp which was organised by fmsa....
It was great though...i really not regretting going to that camp...
I can associate to many other things in my life now...sometimes
something is best not to share to other people right...??

I really feel that i respect a knowlegable person...

Someone ask me...when i want to get married...?? You guess what
is my answer...28 yrs old...and my friend of my said mybe i will
marry at the age of 21...i think i should focus my life at other things...
I know what type of girl i'm searching for...it is not easy you know...

Anw....If i look back i'm free in many ways now...i had step down
from NPMSS, Ngee Ann Muslim Students' Society...i now nvr join
sepak takraw....still thinking if i want to join back sepak takraw...

Maybe i'm too tired to do something which is not benificial...but is
playing sepak takraw is good for your health...?? I think i've not take
sepak takraw seriously since 4 months now...

Anw for those who just visit my blog you can see that my entry there
is this 2006 then it jump for a few months...that is a few yrs and months
that i want to forget bout my life...if you really want to know i may share
my story...

K la i want to EAT...............!!!!!!!!!!!! Aku mkn je kuat...hahha....nanti
gi toilet jugak kan....hahaha...

2008-12-19T22:27:00.001+08:00

Sememangnya aku tk reti pakai facebook...hahhahaa

2008-12-19T16:11:00.002+08:00

Helloooo.....

Just returning from camp yesterday...i really felt that that camp is very
good...lots of things i've learn...

Act i'm the only male participant but i call nasirudin to join me..lucky me...
I never regret going to that camp...first is because i learn many things...
secondly i make more friends especially female friends...hahaha....

I'll update soon...

2008-11-27T03:15:00.002+08:00

Trying to delete my old files from my laptop....Browsing through all the memories
that past...But i deleted it coz like i said now i'm strong enough to face the new
world...being independent...wasting some part of my life because of her....

I really hope that i can be friend with her...InsyaAllah one day when she invite
to her wedding and by then insyaAllah i have a girl which i will going to marry with...
Its really hard to let go sometimes...

My life in the poly will end soon...and i really feel sad...but this is life...you have
to go on...look at your future...after poly then NS..i want to go Uni...i can go Uni...

I just realise that i make a great impact in Ngee Ann Sepak takraw team...I
really do appreciate the support that they give me...till now they still believe that
i can contribute to sepak takraw...

I still remember the time when i just started playing sepak takraw...You know
i really have to werk hard...really hard in order to play sepak takraw...i was fat
i mean very fat in those days...Juggling takraw balls 7 times a week...My life is
takraw...Takraw is my life...It thought me what is the meaning to control yourself..

I still remember my mum thought that i cannot do well in PSLE coz i was sick...
But i made it...slowly i build up from there...My form teacher and my classmates
criticise my leadership skills when i was sec 1...what a sad moment of my life...
Then slowly i build my confidence...i had this crush with this gal during my sec 5
but i was rejected...Nvrm after suffering for 6 month cannot study for my O'Level
then i wake up..i werk hard..Alhamdullilah i did well for my Os...And i know my
parent feel proud of me...

Going to poly...i had a few crush during my poly life...finding my "ideal" gal...Its
hard...but 1 fine day i thought i had find the perfect one...we were togther around
1 year plus....then i re think back bout my "ideal" gal back....and i really feel that i'm
tired to really find and chase...but just look around and maybe will straight marry
with the one i love....

Lots of things that i've learnt during my poly life...it is fun though...i really enjoy it..
The challenges that i've faced...

Now i just going to re think and re learn new stuff...

May i have a power nap...??? I need a power nap....

Just now i played rubber band with my family...tried to aim at a match box....And
my mum hit it first...and she really felt really happy...and i'm the 2nd one to hit
the box...Now i know that my mum has high concentration power..

If you really read my blog until this last sentence means that you care for me...
You are my friends...My friends that i can rely on...Thank you for everything....

May God bless you....

2008-11-24T08:12:00.002+08:00

I always this habit when i in front of my laptop and try to update
my blog then all dissapear from my brain...but when i not in front
of my laptop then a lot of ideas pouring out from my brain....that is
really funny sey...

Yes aku aru igt...maybe i will pick up sepak takraw back...waaaaah
3 month of not playing sepak takraw then i feel like OMG...no word
can describe it....that day i watched my ngee ann friends had a tournament
and when they warm up they juggle the ball...i try to ignore the temptation.
You guess what i really cannot resist of not touching the ball...waaaaah
when i juggle the ball i can feel that, that is part of me that is lost....
I think i just make sepak takraw as my free pastime sports...

But now i try to be a part of ngee ann sepak takraw team back coz
i think that we can win medal this time round during NUS open which
will be held around feb..so there is time for me to train.... :-)

2008-11-21T01:10:00.002+08:00

As days past i realise that i have a few major weaknesses in myself
that i need to improve on.

1) Communication in English
2) Discipline in time management

And i still cannot figure what is my true strength. I still not sure coz
from what i know there is no obvious strengh in me that i know of
right now. Need to find it.

2008-11-17T02:01:00.002+08:00

Semalam keje niari keje....mcm dah ade anak isteri gitu aku ni...hehe

Maklum la nk kahwin kan...hahah...actually just to do something with
that money...investment for the future...I cannot see if we can become rich
with money...I can only see that i can become rich with knowledge...So
basicly that money i will invest in getting knowledge...

Aku kadang2 dpt tips kadang $2 kadang bape sen je...then i feel happy...
tapi aku pikir balek nape aku happy eh?? dpt $0.20 tips....this small amount
if i collect it every day will not make me rich becuase what i spent is much
higher....

I read my friends blog and there is a quote that it really stay in my mind....
Have you give your very best every day....I think not me...i have not reach
to that discipline of doing it to the best of my ability...but i know i need to
improve on that...

Time always fly fast...and i realise that i sleep a lot everyday...8 hrs...i thought
that is the standard sleeping hours that an adult need to sleep..but if i think
back most i think all the scholars they spend their night gaining knowledge...
For me sleep...haha...its 2am already...what i do...blog...haha...

My plan after school is to continue my pizza job and i think i want to take
up relief teacher in my secondary school as malay teacher...as you can see
i know frequently speak in english...that is the reason i should go and teach
malay so to sharpen my malay again...yaaaaay...that is just what i plan...

If in someones perspective when seeing my life i think he or she may feels that
my life is boring...but im happy with what i do now...weekdays i got school
n sometimes meeting and if i were to finish early just hang out at mss or
just go home n do nothing...at weekends work...yaaa that is my life for the
moment...a gerl really likes me need to know my life and my background...
Do not want to hurt my feeling and her feeling...

I have this feeling that i want to change the world....at least change singapore
or at least change the community for the better...so what should i do to become
the leader...?? Discipline...a muslim leader...and i...wahahaha...not to that standard
of becoming an ideal leader...

When i think back this is the first step for me to become a leader..this is the best
training ground..i want to contribute to the community that really needs me...
May Allah bless me...i know Allah give me all the tools to become the Khalifah...
Wooooow that is a huge and heavy word...suddenly i feel that it is still very very
far for me to become the Khalifah...too many sins that i have..

K la i think i better sleep and prepare for tommorrow..

2008-11-10T00:24:00.001+08:00

I think i should just wait and see....

2008-11-08T00:59:00.002+08:00

Ni gambar WSS aku yg ade orang bagi aku....Aku yg no 5...still remember the stress
during the competition....

Actually kan klau korang tgk gambar kat bawah aku pakai tangga yg lebeh pendek...

N aku nk cpt la turon bawah so aku lompat n ade sakali ni aku lompat n aku nk kat terjatoh....

Hahaha malu sey tapi aku ignore je...lagi starting2 kasi bad impression sey.....

Each day my love to become an engineer grew...I start to realise that you need to

plan way ahead...Need tp plan early to have a great life ahead...included that i live...

Nowadays i think a lot...not about studies or what so ever but about my life....

Its hard to jage hati orang...Jage hati setiap orang...I think the best way is to do what

is best...Today i thought of studying tapi nmapak nye tk laa....aiyoooo....nvrm tmr

maybe....

Do money can buy all the thing....??

Just missing my sepak takraw....Lame tk maen takraw....

2008-11-06T01:27:00.002+08:00

Sape yg ikot aku teman tegok wayang ke.....?? Maen bowling ke.....table tennis ke........
Maen bola ke....?? Like no time for all those....

Life have change for me...no more the old riduwan...this is brand new riduwan....
A better Riduwan insyaAllah...

Anw Barrack Obama WON.....!!! How happy am i.....May God help him n give him
strength in pushing America and the world for the betterment....

Tekak aku mcm nk saket gitu..tu la malam2 mkn ice cream agi...dah makan mee then
sambung makan choc ice cream...Letak ice cream kat roti tebal2 dah tu letak kat
cawan agi...hahaha....sekarang perot aku bunyi tapi nk kene ignore klau tk makin
gemok la nanti aku....

Tadi ade EID presentation n you know what aku bual confidently n naseb baek cikgu
tk tny aku soalan...Naseb baek aku bual confident step aku tau la padehal tk tau sgt...
Aku elaborate pon kat layout n not max. demand for calculation.....hehehe...

Alamak next 2 weeks i got Mandarin test....Ni hao ma..?? Wo bu cuo..ni ne..??

Arar eh aku rase aku patot talk siket cine kat blog aku jadi aku bole improve
chinese aku eh...errm....tapi gaknye every entry aku will take at least 30 mins to
write sebab nk pikir punye la lmbat....k laaa....

" May God bless you, may God bless the United State of America. Thank you, Thank you...!!!"
Speeched by Barrack Obama....

2008-11-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

Who said that i'm going to give up on what i believe in...??

Thinking back when i was 1st yr...how much i have grow...
I think ngee ann poly had change me becoming into a better
person...

You know i made a lot of mistakes especially in my poly life...
A lot of them...but that is good because i can learn from it...

When i think a lot about my probs i sometimes think....when
i will die...?? :-/ You know i have to die...we all have to die...
Please forgive my sins....especially to her...just now there is
BAS so i was at the class without realising that she was there...
I was a bit late coz due to cetain reasons..I do not know she
was there when i look tu mcm aku pernah nampak....then cheng
cheng cheng..die daaah...1st impression is to ignore because
i want to be there to give encourangement to my bro hizamy...
Then thinking back i promise myself i'm trying to not show
my face in front of her...so i left...i know when i saw her i do
not have this any feeling....but why i left because she must
feel awkward when i was there....

I think next time i should ignore n pretend that nothing is
happen...yaaaaaay....ya la i should did that but nvrm....

I cant wait to graduate....aku dgr NS dah memanggil aku...
Riduwan Riduwan...mari datang datang...ale2 je bulu rome
aku naek...hahaha...dah2....

I want to watch High School Musical 3....aiyooo...mcm best
gitu...someone....